27 July 2015

When was the last time I was here? Gosh, its been ages. I guess I sorta "grew out" of the whole blogging thing. I mean, I never considered myself a blogger, so I don't really see the need to come and blog regularly just to maintain the daily hits or whatever.

This whole social media thing was never a "job" to me. Its more of a bonus I could say? If I get a sponsorship/email, YAY. If I dont, I am not gonna end up in one corner and cry my eyeballs out. I mean, if people email me nowadays and I get sponsorships, I mean, hell why not? It doesnt hurt, I get free stuffs. Who doesnt want free stuffs? 

I never ever attend events. I dont want to. Sometimes, I actually feel bad for not replying emails. To me, its tiring. Believe it or not, I hate to mingle. Social talks and all, I suck at it and hate it. I find it a chore. Coming up with small talks and all, I've never been that kind of person. I would go to one corner, be an awkward turtle and just pretend to be busy with my phone. I mean, I am sure everyone is in one way or another guilty or that? But of course, its a total different story when I am with my close friends. I am like a, hyena? A wild parrot that will never shut up.

Yes, I update my instagram VERY often. But I mean cmon, I LOVE taking photos, especially photoshoots. I get a sense of satisfaction when I see a nice photo taken. I'm one of the instagram-slaves. Instagram for me, is like a short picture time-line of my life, happy moments captured down.

I mean, a few years ago, my answers/actions had been different. I was young and immature. That I wont deny. But now, I know what I want out of my life. Social media is not what I want to do as a job. The politics and all is way too much. It all looks good on the surface. Inside, not too sure. Too competitive, too scary. I have my dreams/ambitions which I am trying to work hard for. I do what I want, post what I want. I care more about who out of my friends liked my photos and not the number of likes. Whats the point of getting hundreds, thousands of likes, if the people you care about doesn't like your photo? Whats the point if you got so many followers but have no actual real friends??