Let her go - Passenger

I'm in love with this song for now. 

Mid semesters

Finally done with all my assignments for now and I'm finally able to take a short break (though according to our tutors, we're supposed to continue doing our work during the break...). This mid semester break definitely means a lot to me since the parents just flew over this morning to come visit me and I'll be their tour guide for their stay here (But I honestly don't think I'll be a really good one since I dont know ALOT of places here and there's also nothing much here but my friends insist that its cause I don't travel or explore enough.) Somewhere in between, we'll be flying over to sydney which despite having travelled there before, I have no recollections of. And I just can't wait to drink Gongcha there! More than one whole week spending quality time with just the parents and I cant be more happy. I think I have the best parents ever and I love them so much so much so much. 

My family will always be the most important people in my life and I love them so so much. 

22 March 2013

"The Bride" 

I wonder if ever

I will be a bride

With a white lace gown

Standing in front of everyone

Looking beautiful

Because someone

Loves me

That much.

Imagine meeting someone who's so important to you, other than family, who you want to spend with for the rest of your life with. To wake up everyday to, to see the person in their worst states, through thick and thin. Sometimes I really wonder how it feels like to be so close to a person who's not related to you by blood, to let that person into your thoughts and soul. To be truly comfortable with that one and never get tired of him/her. Its so amazing, don't you think? 

But I guess these days people get married for different reasons. Like they think that they're "at the right age", or they're afraid to be left on the shelf and deemed as "unwanted", or cause they're friends are all getting married (probably shotgun? hahaha), etc. Then they have kids cause thats what people are supposed to do after they get married. Its like just being another one in society, conforming to the norms. But shouldn't we get married cause you just know that the person is the person and you really just want to be with that person "forever" (though I officially kind of gave up on the idea of forever). 

yet another post of my super random thoughts* 

4-8 Year Olds Describing Love. 

Rebecca, age 8: When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That's love.

Danny, age 7: Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK.

Chris, age 7: Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Robert Redford.

Mary Ann, age 4: Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day.

Terri, age 4: Love is what makes you smile when you're tired.

(p.s. The kids have got their own stuffs to teach the adults too.)

Kiss me quick, Make it last.

I need to stop my gay-ness with the peace sign thingy. :( 

"If we wait till we are ready, we'll be waiting for the rest of our lives."

- Lemony Snicket.

The other side of the East.

Excursion to West End. 

Brunch at Three Monkeys Cafe.

Pretty Karol!

I think west end is gonna be one of my favourite hang out places from now on. 

Love and Attraction.

I think these days, even a 6 year old kid knows what is love better than adults. I hate it when people go around saying "i love you" so often it loses its meaning. Some say it too quickly and too often. Do they know what it means? What is love to them? Don't say it if you don't mean it or know the meaning of it. 

Studying pyschology can get pretty interesting I guess, at least for the lecture topics here. Last sem, I had a lecture on some sex thingy. This semester there's another one "Love and Attraction". I gotta admit that I was pretty interested in it at first but I kinda lost focus halfway and got bored. It seemed to me as if people were trying to get free love advice/consultation from my lecturer instead. I think he's gonna get more students emailing him after this lecture for "consultations" or those meetings. Honestly, it was pretty funny and there was this one girl who kept asking questions. I just kinda listened. 

There are SIX kinds of love. (I'm only gonna mention those which I think are important and can still remember.) 

1. Passionate love. 

- I guess this one is the kind you see in movies like The Notebook etc. According to the lecture slides "all consuming emotionally, physically expressed". I was kinda wondering what the percentage of this kind of love happening. And it kind of got me thinking "so love = sex? no sex= less/no love?" Which of course I got pretty angry about and if you have been reading my blog for awhile, you should know its a pretty sensitive topic to me. I mean the lecture slides say "physically expressed". Im hoping its through actions? Like plucking flowers/weeds? Is it considered physical? Or maybe just a hug? 

2. Game-playing love. 

-AHH, this, I totally hate it. So according to the slides once again, its the kind you just want to win in the situation and ... (I FORGOT. SHIT.)

*- but anyway, I just hate it. So I guess by saying game-playing love it means playing mind games with the person or playing hard to get etc. Ya I hate those things. Mind-fucking they call it. Stupid stupid stupid. Dumb foolish, childish. But apparently, if you don't play mind games/ain't hard to get, the guys won't treasure you cause you'll be deemed as "easy to get" or "not a challenge". Guys are supposedly like those animals in the wild, I read. They like hunting, or "The Chase". So if you're a easy chase, they wont treasure you as much blah blah. But then, mind games are tiring and you get "mind-fucked". You go crazy and start reading too much into things. There may be double meanings to things and you start thinking "does he/she like me?" or "why is he/she doing this?". But I guess girls are the ones to get mind-fucked more cause we tend to think too much being girls and read too much into things. If you play mind games, IF you happen to get the guy, the guy may treasure you more. But if you play too much, the guy may just give up halfway. Then if you dont, you get mind-fucked and get hurt. Both ways, its wrong. WHAT NOW??

3. Logical Love

- This is the one where people are more realistic and pragmatic. They tend to focus more on whether the person is able to give you a comfortable life those sort of things. In this case, contentment in life > excitement. Prolly looking more at money etc. Or the stupid 5Cs. 

*-HEY ANYWAY, just to those who are very into the 5Cs and think they are a must. You don't always have to rely on your other half to get it? Have some backbone/pride, work for it yourself. You don't need a guy to have those, you know that right? You're capable of owning all of that on your own and have a better sense of satisfaction from it. 

*- And if you actually love a person cause of his money or what, do bear in mind that as much as how that fortune/money can disappear overnight, it also can be earned. If a person loves you enough, he'll probably work hard for both your future cause he wants to give you the best. Some things, money can't buy. As the usual goes, so what if you have all the best nicest bags/clothes/cars/houses but you go home to a "home" lack of warmth and love to a guy who may not love you. Whats the point? 

4. Possessive Love

-Emotionally intense, filled with jealousy, dependancy

*- My thoughts on this: If your whole life revolves around one person, then won't it be pretty sad. You won't die without a guy. 

OH OH, AND THIS IS THE MOST INTERESTING THING EVER.

STATISTICS ON FINDING THE ONE.

*I think this was based in Australia*

20 Million in country. 

10 Million of the opposite gender. 

200,000 of the same values/interests.

40,000 who are attractive to you. 

8,000 who likes you. 

8 who you will meet.

4 who are single. 

2 who want a long term r/s.

p.s. NOT FORGETTING YOUR CRITERIAS OR WHATSOEVER.

WHAT ARE THE ODDS??? 

Regret/

Why are humans such idiots. We only start to treasure the people around us when the person falls sick or gets an illness. Only then, like a tornado hitting us on our heads filled with nothing but selfishness and superficial stuffs, we realise how much that person means to us. We start thinking of the past, the hurtful things we've done to the person and the good things that person has done for you. We try to mend things before its too late. I hate this whole thing. I really really hate it so much. We're such idiots. Okay, idiots would be an understatement but I don't want to start using a string of vulgarities. Idiots shall be as far as it shall go for now, but you get what I mean. 

If I can choose, I'll be a whale instead of a human. Human beings are too complicated and we think too highly of ourselves. We think that we can "control" the world. We kill other living things we own this world and yet we talk about "human rights". Sometimes, I can't help it but to feel ashamed to be a human. I shall be a whale and swim freely till another idiotic human/or a bunch of them comes and capture me and kill me. I rather be the one to get killed then be the heartless murderer/humans without humanity.  

Too cute for words.

THIS IS THE CUTEST THING EVERRRR. I CANT STOP LAUGHING AND SMILING EVERYTIME I SEE IT.  

Lost in thoughts once again.

Such a waste of pretty flowers. I remember seeing somewhere that if you love flowers, you shouldn't pluck them though you want to keep them for yourselves cause once you pluck them, they will die. Like how it applies to love. Now thinking about it, I would probably be more impressed/happy with handplucked flowers from a boy then those nicely wrapped perfect bouquets. Handpicked flowers from a park or maybe a bunch of weeds, I wouldn't mind. Hehehe it seems too sweet to me actually. So romantic~ Imagine a boy standing in front of you with a messy bunch of flowers+weeds tied together loosely with a recycled ribbon. Too perfect for me. Ahh sigh. 

Girl from the North Country

I'm such a sucker for such songs. #oldfashionedbutilloveitstill

I love oldies~ they're the both, with both meaning and feelings in the songs. 

Reminders

I am such a forgetful person. I need constant reminders. I wish I had this invisible thing/device which would remind me of them. Or maybe being invisible would be too much to ask for. How about a pair of lens which I can insert into me eyes. All my constant reminders would be on the lens so it would be engraved on everything thats in my sight. That way, I will never forget. Now I wish I am a mad scientist then I'll go invent it. Geez, I think I've been watching too many Mission Impossible movies or something. 

I need to remind myself who I am. What are my intentions, what is my reason for being here and what I should be doing and not doing. Remind myself of what I want from myself and when I look back at my life, how I would expect it to be. Who's important and what's important. Past mistakes and never to repeat them. What I said I would/wouldn't do and those "principles" I've had. 

"Whatever you are, be a good one" -Abraham Lincoln

I need to travel back to my primary school self for a while, to remind myself. 

I shouldn't try to be somebody I'm not. I need to be comfortable with myself and just take a chill pill.  

If I gotta try so hard to be somebody you want, that's being fake and I don't really want that do I? 

Now I really wonder how those "goth kids" do it. They know they get the stares and stuff, but yet they dont give two hoots. Really respect them. Sigh, then here I am judging them. RAWRRRRR. 

I.need.to.stop.it. 

p.s. I feel like I'm typing some motivational post now. Need to stop. 

7 March 2013

For whatever we lose (like a you or a me), its always ourselves we find in the sea. 

- E.E. Cummings

I really want to swim with the turtles. We'll make awesome friends. 

(yes, maybe they'll hate me and swim away from me. I KNOW.)

 (if only... YA CARRY ON DREAMING TRICIA...)

04 March 2013

Unless it’s mad, passionate, extraordinary love, it’s a waste of your time. There are too many mediocre things in life; Love shouldn’t be one of them.

- Dreams of an Insomniac

REAL Bones.

Today was my first official forensics practical and I managed to touch real human bones! Ahhhh! So cool right. I mean, cool would definitely be an understatement but its the first word which popped into my head due to my limited vocabulary. :( So soon I'll be able to distinguish the different bone parts, whether the skeleton belongs to a male/female and the approximate age, etc. Woots! Maybe criminology isn't going to be that boring after all, or at least for this semester! 

One of my many childhood dreams of becoming an archaeologist is sort of coming true! Yay! I had lots of childhood dreams as a kid, one of them being an archeaologist. At that point, I think I wanted to look for dinosaur bones in africa or something. The others included ice-skater, teacher, farmer, and the list goes on. But I gotta admit I still want to be a ice-skater till now. You know those ice-skater + ballerina kind of thing? Then they play some cheesy Beethoven song and those lights and you twirl and twirl non stop in the fairy-like tutu. Ughhh, my imagination is getting the better of me once again. 

Good night, sweet dreams~!