Atoms and molecules

I have a new theory.

We're all like atoms in the air, aimlessly going around, colliding into each other. Some of us are negatively charged, some positively charged. Some more positive, others less. Some more negative, or less. We may bump into other atoms of all different charges. Yet we're all seeking to find that one atom which has the same charge as us, or what you would call, our soulmate. We yearn to find the one that we have the most "chemistry" with. But how is that possible with the millions, billions of atoms everywhere. What are the chances? Seemingly impossible. 

P.s. Well, this is probably one of my many posts that may not make sense to you but I just need to write it down somewhere and what better place than my own blog. You probably would know by now that I didn't do well in chemistry for secondary school at all. But at least those boring chemistry lessons in class last time can finally be put to some use after so many years. 

31 August 2013

"Here's what's not beautiful about it: from here, you can't see the rust or the cracked paint or whatever, but you can tell what the place really is. You see how fake it all is. It's not even hard enough to be made out of plastic. It's a paper town. I mean look at it, Q: look at all those cul-de-sacs, those streets that turn in on themselves, all the houses that were built to fall apart. All those paper people living in their paper houses, burning the future to stay warm. All the paper kids drinking beer some bum bought for them at the paper convenience store. Everyone demented with the mania of owning things. All the things paper-thin and paper-frail. And all the people, too. I've lived here for eighteen years and I have never once in my life come across anyone who cares about anything that matters."

Wow. I haven't read finished even half, but I've already pretty much made up my mind that this is my favourite paragraph in the book. ♡

Tomorrow is the start of a new month. 
September, I wonder what you have in store for me. 

Have a great month ahead everyone.

Six on the second hand
Two new years resolutions
And there's just no question
What this man should do

Take all the time lost
All the days that I cost
Take what I took and
Give it back to you

All this time
We were waiting for each other
All this time
I was waiting for you
We got all these words
Can't waste them on another
So I'm straight in a straight line
Running back to you

Pet Peeves

Its a friday night and I am still wide awake, unable to sleep. So I decided to do a list. Hahahhaha. And I chose: my greatest pet peeves.

As much as I always irritate people, I get irritated EXTREMELY easily by others. How ironic is that. And when that happens, I will never fail to give my mouth a chance to "relief stress". HAHAHAHHA.  COMPLAIN. 

If you ask me what are my pet peeves, I can probably come up with a long never-ending list. But I shall just stop at 10. 

My Pet Peeves

1. When boys are rude/disrespectful to girls. (e.g. boys who use the f*** word on girls, even if its just jokingly) I will not hesitate to scold the guy at all or stop talking to them for a long time. Personally, it just shows me what kind of person the guy is. 

2. Animal abusers. 

3. People who act like they know/understand me a lot when they actually don't. 

4. People who judge people and start gossiping about others when they don't know them personally at all. I am sure we all know what it is like to be judged and its not a good feeling, yet we still do it. But I especially hate it when people start going around calling people a "bitch" "backstabber" "fake" etc when they don't even know the person?? 

I have this theory. If you know me, and you think I am a bitch or whatever, I'll let you, even buy for you a loud hailer, to announce it to the whole world. Go ahead, and tell people, if thats the truth. But if you don't know me, then just keep your mouth shut and mind your own business.

5. When guys carry their girlfriends handbags. Girls who have the capacity to carry their handbag out, I am sure you can continue carrying your handbag and stop making your bf look like an idiot.

6. Boyfriends who accompany their girlfriends to the lingerie section with their tikopek faces on full display. 

7. Unfilial children.

8. People who look down on others, regardless of what it is regarding. 

9. When I hold open the door for people, and they just walk right past me without saying thank you. 

10. When there isn't a happy ending in a movie/show/drama. (e.g. male lead doesn't end up with the female lead)

Ask.fm/triciahwam to give me more ideas on what to blog about? 

29 August 2013

Good things today: 

1. One day closer to home. 

2. Had a awesome satisfying dinner with C and J filled with much laughter. 

3. Realised I should stop being so negative and that positive thoughts are v impt. 

4. Surprised momma with a small gift which made her v happy. Teehee. 

5. Feeling slightly more optimistic about everything. Fighting! 

6. Cooked hello kitty pasta with bolognese sauce I sorta made on my own for momma. It was really not bad and the fire alarm did not go off. 

7. Did some squats in my room to keep fit. 

28 August 2013

Today started on the wrong note. It was a horrible morning. I had woken up on the wrong side of the bed. I was like a grumpy old lady whose morning breakfast had been eaten by her favourite cat. Or maybe thats a bad example but something along that line. I was just over-dramatizing my whole entire life and I pity my eldest sister, who I called on skype to complain and whine non stop to and ended up crying, and of course my mother. I ended up crying non-stop to her puppy who could not figure out where the crying was coming from since it was all through skype. Yes, even the poor puppy was implicated. 

So my dearest dajie, you're probably gonna read this idk when, but just wanna say, no matter how much I complain or whine, I still love you and I know you'll always love me. And since there is skype these days, you wont be able to escape my whining and complaining. Teehee. All the best to your ears. Hahhahahahah. 

But anyway, the day ended on a good note. Hehehhe. YAY! 

To those having a horrible day/week, cheers to better days ahead! 

"Straightens hair, puts on eyeliner, dabs on that cherry pink lipgloss and takes one last look at the mirror, all for the boy who will never care." 

Moments of Impact

"The moment of impact. The moment of impact proves potential for change. Has ripples effects far beyond what we can predict. Sending some particles crashing together. Making them closer than before. While sending others spinning off into great ventures. Landing them where you've never thought you've found them. That's the thing about moments like these. You can't, no matter how hard you try, controlling how it's gonna affect you. You just gotta let the colliding part goes where they may. And wait. For the next collision." 

- The Vow

Moments of impact.

Imagine if that moment of impact had never happened. What a huge difference it would have had on your life. Perhaps even life-changing. If you had not clicked on the send button for that long message, if you had chose not to go to that coffee shop on that particular day and missed a chance to bump into someone that may be the person who will change your life, the one of your wildest dreams. That moment of impact if you had not crossed the road and avoided a road accident, or perhaps gotten into one. Life is all about the moments. Who knows what are the next moments that are about to happen? And these may be the moments that may alter our lives entirely.

"Life is all about moments and how it can change our lives forever."

P.s. I've watched The Vow five times in total. Wonder who has watched more times than me. 

23 August 2013

They forgot to add "easy said, too." 

I lie in bed tonight wondering of too many things that I am unable to control. How sad and frustrating.

Tired of thinking so much. 

If only.

Thats true. 

I dont need all the friends in the world, if I have one true friend who I can always count on. I dont need all the followers on instagram if I can have just you following me and liking all my photos. I dont need anyone else's love if I can just have yours. 

If only. 

20 August 2013

Random OOTDs over the past week. 

Alexander Wang's niece is wayyyy too cute!!!

If I had a daughter, I'll probably dress her up like that. Hahahhaahhahah. 

Sometimes I really wish that I was much simpler. Not that I am complicated or  whatsoever. 

Okay, now I am being contradictive. SIGH.

Slow down, slow down.

Growing up in Singapore, undoubtedly its one of the safest place to live in. You can go out in the middle of the night without afraid of getting mugged/kidnapped/raped, there's always shops open 24 hours (e.g. Mustafa?) to ensure you always have something to do. But its also cause of living in singapore that we tend to move too fast. Our society is too fast-paced and we think we must catch up to not be left behind. But perhaps being left behind may not be that bad after all?

Everything is at such a fast accelerating pace. People rush everywhere, maybe sometimes just too used to walking fast. Even when we may not even have a destination to go in mind, we still tend to 'rush'. No aims/goals in mind, but we unconsciously keep moving, keep walking. Cause thats what we do, thats what we're taught to do, thats what we're supposed to do and last of all, thats what everyone does. 

Because of this, we tend to miss out on, what should I call it, life's little details, maybe? Small details that may not been much at the point, yet if we had slowed down, perhaps we would learn to appreciate things more, enjoy things more, think more. We could have slowed down and looked around at our surroundings. Be more sensitive and notice more. Maybe then we would take note of these seemingly insignificant details which may actually mean a lot or teach us a lot. Invaluable lessons that can't be taught in school. We fail to take notice of our surroundings. We neglect our environment. And because of this, we may be missing out on life's greatest stuffs.

We've forgotten to slow down to enjoy the process. The process of life?

Time to slow down.

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On a ligher note, pictures from EKKA 2013 this year. 

(btw, this also marks one year since I switched url to daisyponies.)

Yes, such carnivals that you always see in movies (e.g. the one in the Notebook rmb??) actually exist!! Yay! Hahahhahaha! Definitely an experience. Except that I dont really enjoy the part where I watch boys winning big fluffy stuff toys for their girls who are at the side smiling till their mouth is gonna drop and squealing with delight while I stand at the side trying to convince myself that it would be much cheaper to go outside to buy a stuff toy for myself since those games are a big rip-off. Pfft. Sense any SLIGHT (???) tinge of jealousy here? HAHHAHAHAHAHHAHA. But its definitely quite funny. Not everyone has such an experience like me! 

14 Aug 2013

"You want to dance to stupid music in your stupid room and have a nice job that doesn’t get in the way of living your life too much. You want to be less scared, less anxious, and more willing. Because if you’re closed off now, you can only imagine what you’ll be like later.

Every day you vow to change some aspect of your life and every day you fail. At this point, you’re starting to question your own power as a human being. As of right now, your fears have you beat. They’re the ones that are holding your twenties hostage.

Stop thinking that everyone is having more sex than you, that everyone has more friends than you, that everyone out is having more fun than you. Not because it’s not true (it might be!) but because that kind of thinking leaves you frozen. You’ve already spent enough time feeling like you’re stuck, like you’re watching your life fall through you like a fast dissolve and you’re unable to hold on to anything.

I don’t know if you ever get better. I don’t know if a person can just wake up one day and decide to be an active participant in their life. I’d like to think so. I’d like to think that people get better each and every day but that’s not really true. People get worse and it’s their stories that end up getting forgotten because we can’t stand an unhappy ending. The sick have to get better. Our normalcy depends upon it.

You have to value yourself. You have to want great things for your life. This sort of shit doesn’t happen overnight but it can and will happen if you want it.

Do you want it bad enough? Does the fear of being filled with regret in your thirties trump your fear of living today?

We shall see."

- Ryan O'Connell, You're not making the most of your 20s.

♡

One of the most beautiful creatures ever. ♡

13 August 2013

On Sunday, my momma flew over to OZ land again. I actually didnt want her to come since the point of coming overseas was to learn to be independent and no matter how much I hated it here or was homesick, I told her its okay. But she decided to fly over despite me protesting cause she probably knew how much I was "dying" over here. Hahahaha a mother def knows her daughter best. She had actually booked her tickets and gave me "10 days to 2 weeks" before I started missing home and crying so she had it all planned. Hahhahahaa. 

The sacrifices my momma makes for me is crazy and no amount of gratitude or appreciation can show how much she means to me. 

Before she came over, my mom kept asking me what I needed from singapore for her to bring over but I couldnt think of much. I just mentioned my parcels that had arrived in the mail from online shopping. When she arrived, me knowing me, started opening her luggage since I wanted to open my parcels. THE FIRST THING I SAW WAS THIS BROWN FURRY THING. AND I WAS LIKE "WHATS THAT??!" THEN I PULLED IT OUT AND IT WAS THIS ZARA-LOOKALIKE STUFFED TOY. (btw, its pretty big.) HAHHHAHAHAHHA my mom's the sweetest ever. She bought this toy cause she thought that it looked exactly like my dog and she knew how much I missed Zara so she bought it for me. And she kept saying "wahh see, so soft can hug to sleep!!". And her surprise also included a bottle of chanel perfume and F21 tops etc. Hahahhahaha. "Wah my taste not bad ahhh." she said as I told her I liked the tops from F21. 

thank you to the best momma in the world. i love you mommy. ♡

10 August 2013

"Do not chase people. Be you and do your own thing and work hard. The right people who belong in your life will come to you, and stay."

Short Update

My apologies for the major lack of posts. I seem to be running out of things to rant about or topics to blog, since my life now is lacking much excitement or events. Life for me these days seems somewhat more peaceful and less eventful. Less drama? Ever since coming back, life for me has been, I cant seem to find the proper word, more relaxing? I don't have much social life or activities except the usual waking up for school and sleeping my weekends away. I hardly go out for late night activities on weekends or anything, whether you believe it or not. I just stay in my room and fiddle around. You may think thats absolutely boring or sick, but sometimes going out all the time is not too good either. I may actually get too used to such a slack lifestyle. But of course there are days I wake up on the other side of the bed and figure that I need to do something about my current lack of motivation/determination and meaninglessness. Then probably drag myself out of bed and go get some much needed groceries. I like how this is the totally opposite of my dramatic hectic insane lifestyle back in singapore. 

Well of course I do have friends. I hardly mingle or socialise, make new friends. I like to stick to the same few people that I am totally comfortable with and have seen the silliest side of me to not judge me. I realised that I don't need much friends. I just need that few that I know I can count on and who would always stand by me. Today I went out with C for dinner and a movie. Yes, I finally managed to catch my first movie in a cinema here in australia. It was a awesome day while discussing about our food haunts and the pasar malams in singapore. Hehehehe. And I actually came back after 11pm which is a pretty rare thing for me here. 

In the meantime, pardon the blog which is growing more boring. 

ANYWAYS, 

Happy National Day!! 

Whether you spent the day actually the birth of your country or doing something not related at all, I hope that you had a great time! :)

Sexy cramps

Today I lay in bed the whole day under heavy sheets with my pillows and fav blanky and not forgetting Bobo. Sometimes I'm perfectly fine with being alone, yet on days like these, the fact that I am all alone, dealing my sexy irresistible cramps with no one showing me care and concern. Then it hits me like one big fat tornado. 

Pffffftttt. 

04 August 2013

Name: Bobo (or Bubu)

D.O.B : 04 August 2013

through thick and thick, the loneliness and happiness in oz land.

02 August 2013

Its really funny how things change sometimes. As time passes, usually without you even realising it though at that moment, it seemed like you would always stay at 16, people's wants and needs change. Their values, priorities, attitudes, etc. What seemed like something I would die for last time became of the least value to me now. Perhaps if this were to happen to the 16/17 years old me, I would be the happiest girl ever, making the biggest fuss out of it, beaming from ear to ear. I always thought that it was what I wanted, what I had always hoped for. But even for myself, I make wrong judgements. All the time, in fact. 4/5 years down the road, now, it actually happens and I am shocked at my own reaction. I just thought to myself, if only this happened years ago... what a waste.