31 Oct 2012

These days I am starting to surprise myself a lot. I've been staying in my room for the past 5 days. Other than going out for dinner with my friends or going to the library to study once. I told myself, I need to go shopping. Well at least the old me would definitely have said that and gone on to complain bout how long I haven't been to the city. But many nights I slept with this thought and when I woke up the next morning, my mind tells me otherwise and I decide stay in my room. Has australia done me good or more harm? I learnt to be on my own and stay on my own. Or maybe too much of that to a point that I like being alone too much at times and don't like crowds anymore. Hermit? If you dragged me back to singapore now and get back to my old life there, I would probably pass out. Too much for me? Sigh I'll wait till I get back in around three weeks and find out for myself then.

List to do b4 graduating:

1. SKYDIVING! 
2.  *secret*
3.  *secret* 

28 Oct 2012

the reason for not blogging these days, blame it on those korean dramas. i have always said that i wouldn't jump on the korean drama bandwagon thing. but you know how you always say "i will never ...." and it always happens? especially when you say how you'll never date that someone, then somehow things don't turn out that? its like the way life works? at least for me. so guys, watch your words. v v impt. 

so for the past few days, i practically just lazed in bed the whole day, dozing off and waking up to continue the drama episodes. some would call this the life, but i wouldn't. considering that my final exams for the semester are in a week's time. not funny at all. 

im going crazyyyy over the lead actor. i was watching the youtube videos on him and my friend told me that i went "omgggg he's sooo cuteeeee" at least ten times within that short clip that probably slightly more than a minute long. 

yknow how you can get so sucked into the dramas, you get so agitated and start hitting the bed when the third party has to come in and spoil the r/s between the leads. and how you start laughing and smiling uncontrollably to the computer screen when there's a really funny/sweet scene. and there was one night I got so affected cause the lead actor and actress had a fight and weren't tgt anymore, I couldnt sleep and made myself stay up to the point where they reconciled and kissed. then i was able to go to bed happily. urghh, getting too affected, as usual. 

WOW

Congratulations Tricia Hwam, you have successfully managed to fail your 2nd Criminlogy assignment. 

*throws sparklers and confetti in the air*

23 Oct 2012

so i've been cooking up a storm. okay, a storm would be an overstatement. 

maybe, a small thunderstorm would be more apt. been cooking for my mom and I secretly think I have a secret talent in cooking now. *dreams and stares into a space of food* 

my mom think the vegetables I cook are really really tasty. maybe its cause she doesn't have a clue about the amount of salt i put into it. oops. but other than that, my mom and the rest of my family are really impressed. *pats on my back* 

got back my results for a criminology assignment and i kinda just passed? Uh-oh. its the first assignment which i've gotten back since the start of university. dark skies are looming ahead. uh-oh. but on the brighter side, i was rushing through this assignment cause it was due the week I came back from mid-sem break and I was rushing it the night before. maybe thats why the marks are like that. Or at least i hope so? my mom was like "at least you passed.. no need flying colours, a lot of As kind. you pass can already". well, but the thing is, its me. I wanna do well. :( but obviously, its all talk and no actions. I always say this and that, but never get down to proper work. In my head, i probably think that serious studying  for approx. 3 hours would get me aces. obviously we all know thats not gonna happen in this real world. But thinking back, i never spent more than one day doing an assignment since poly.. Hah, now I know why. 

Save the dolphins!!!

What are people thinking? Money has taken control of them and its sad and disappointing to see what some people are becoming. The world was such a beautiful place, untouched. You wanna build these buildings and get rid of nature with all the ongoing deforestation etc., you had your wish. Now, you're targeting these innocent animals?  Leave these innocent creatures alone. Give them the freedom they deserve. They didn't do anything wrong. 

Such beasts some people are. You don't deserve the slightest bit of respect. 

These beautiful animals are innocent and they deserve their freedom. By having the dophins at RWS, the guests are entertained at the expense of the lives, happiness and freedom of these dolphins. They are living creatures with feelings too. Spare a thought for them. How would feel if you were one of them? We are definitly more privileged as humans but we should not be exploiting this privilege and put it to good use instead. 

Use your voice to urge Resorts World to return the 25 wild-caught dolphins to the wild. 

Sign an online protest letter which will go directly to Resorts World, asking them to please let the dolphins go. 

Just follow a few simple steps on the website: 

www.saddestdolphins.com/email.html

Check out their fb page for more information:

http://www.facebook.com/RWSLetTheDolphinsGo?ref=stream

19 Oct 2012

"Be patient, be still. Things aren't always what you want, but they can be. Enjoy the freedom that the here and now brings. Let the future take care of itself, while you take care of the moment."

How I wished that everybody could read each other's minds. There would be no lies, deception or fake-ness. You wont have to keep guessing if that person hates or likes you.We would know what each other really thought about the opposite and we wont have anything to hide from each other. No masks. We would know each other as who we really are. It would be a good thing, perhaps? 

*check out the mega awesome pimple right smacked in the middle of my cheeks. 

Moments~

“Most of our life is a series of images that pass us by like towns on the highway. But sometimes a moment stuns us as it happens and we know that this instant is more than a fleeting image. We know that this moment, every part of it, will live on forever.” - One tree hill.

On a side note, school is getting better, I suppose? I am adapting better now though once in awhile the homesickness does hit me quite badly. Im am probably the worse student ever though. This is what I am doing during lectures and tutorials. Is it just me? Do other people do such things too? Well on the positive side, at least I keep my classmates in class "entertained" by my nonsense. My creativity has been put to the wrong use. If only I could apply it to my assignments and essays. Exams are in two weeks and the only thing that keeps me going is my three months summer break back in singapore. :) 

Oh and last week, the mother bought me new ponies to add to my collection! I was sooo happy! I was holding the boxes of toys and noticed little girls looking at me with puppy eyes like I was this big evil witch stealing their toys away from them. Sorry, I feel really bad too! But just wait, cause soon it will be your turn. I remember when I was much younger, I used to go toys'rus and bug my mom to get me more barbies but cause I had too many, she would refuse. Then I would doing my signature pouting and throwing tantrums. I would point to the other girls who's mom was buying them all the latest barbies and get really really jealous. I guess all I can say is, everything sort of goes in circles. Its like a cycle. 

The current pony collection! They're all so precious to me. And as I mentioned b4, my mom's much happier buying me ponies then hellokitty stuffs cause she recently admitted again that she thought hellokitty was ugly. 

 Got this hot air balloon specially for MLP. Geez, whats wrong with me. 

Oh and guess who got a new unicorn today? ♡

Lost~

"All my life, my heart has yearned for a thing I cannot name"

 -Andre Breton

“Most of our life is a series images. They pass us by like towns on the highway. But sometimes, a moment stuns us as it happens. And we know that this instant is more fleeting than an image. We know that this moment, every part of it, will live on forever.” 

- One Tree Hill

Flowers

Sighh, I need a photobooth buddy here. :( 

And I still cant bear to eat my flower lollipop. Its too pretty to be eaten. Btw, did you hear this myth before? In india, people believe that flowers are the way of showing that the Earth is smiling. I wonder how true that it. The earth is not like how it used to be though, in a bad way. There's too much pollution, deforestation, no more nature and the people inside. Shouldn't the Earth be crying instead?  

Me and lecture theatres

Gosh there's this thing about lecture theatres. Its making me sleepy. Very sleepy and my eyes always get droopy. Eyelids become heavy. Once I step out of it, I become wide awake. I get back all my energy and adrenaline.

Today's just another day at psychology lecture. Its the second last lecture for the semester. Pretty amazing how times flies without realisation. Even after all this time, every time I look at my lecturer, I still think he's the anorexic version of Albus Dumbledore from Hp. No joke.

I shall head back later to catch a nap during my one hour break. Yeah, I always walk all the way back to my place for a nap during my one hour breaks. Its called power naps.

Makeup Tutorial

Hi pixies, 

I have finally finally got down to do a makeup tutorial (which I think is the worst everrrr) but cause alot of you guys did request on my formspring, so i'll just try okay? 

Oh its a unlisted video, so you gotta have the link! 

http://youtu.be/psWg6jlyrXE

*oh you gotta ignore my huge-ass ginormous pimple and I had some remnants of mascara left on my eye cause I didn't remove the makeup properly.. Other than the eye makeup, my face had just been wiped twice with the biore makeup cleansing wipes, so haters, if you're gonna comment, hahahaha go ahead but I cant think of anything new you guys havent commented on so yeahh. :) Hope the video helped a bit though I think its really lousy. But at least I tried. Oh and if you noticed, the products I used in the tutorial are pretty different from what I had been using cause alot of my other makeup had finished.. So I'm trying out these products. 

13 October 2012

Yknow I just need to get this off my mind. But when girls have their periods, I rather there be pixie dust, fairy dust or something else instead of bloood? #justsaying

I've got pimples popping like a G6, like a G6!

1. 3 Turn offs: 

• - guys carrying girls bags, 
• - guys who go lingerie shopping with girls and their eyeballs look like they're gonna pop out any moment
• - too skinny (ewww...)

2. 3 Turn ons:

• -LEGS 
• -Backpacks 
• -Having a really soft side (only towards you) despite looking like a tough guy
• -FILIAL PIETY (sorry its an extra, but a must.) 

3. Phobia: 

• - Rejections? (hey, whats new for me?) 

4. Celebrity crush: 

• - TAKESHI KENASHIRO!!! *ooohhh ahhhhss* 

5. Smoke/drink: 

• - no, yes during parties. 

6. Favourite movies: 

• - i hate this kind of questions... I'm too fickle to make up my mind. 

7. Name:

• - Tricia? not Trisha. pronounced as "treee-sherr". I hate it when people pronounce my name wrongly or call me in short forms (e.g. trish). I feel like whacking them. 

8. Favourite band: 

• - Honestly, the first band that came into my mind was westlife. :( 

*p.s. okay.. this questionaire thingy is too boring. I cant continue!! 

that boy girl kind of love.

So i have finally came to this final decision that while other aspects of my life are working out pretty well, or more than well. Im probably not meant for love. Not family love since I definitely have no lack of that and am enjoying every single moment and second of it. But maybe yknow, those boy girl kind of love. Its also maybe the only thing my life lacks of as of now but im perfectly happy without it. I won't die from it, I suppose. Other than the fact that I realised that day that perhaps the world was ending since its gonna be dec 2012 and I am gonna die without experiencing true love, the boy girl kind like those in movies, and I kinda freaked out big time. There's always something wrong or the wrong timing blah blah. Tired of those. I have this mindset which has been supported by lots of evidence that maybe l'll never experience real true love, like those in movies. Boy girl love definitely does exist but maybe just not in my life. I've kinda accepted this fact and am taking it quite cool? But on second thoughts, if you think you love me in the boy girl kind of way, thats cool too. Hee. 

"pour yourself a drink, put on some lipstick and pull yourself together" -Liz Taylor

Sunshineee~

you are my sunshine, my only sunshine

you make me happy, when skies are grey,

you'll never know dear how much i love you,

please don't take my sunshine away.

I miss you so much.

sigh, i love this doggy here so much its unbelievable. I'll even die for her. Sometimes on nights when I cant sleep, i'll whip out my phone and scroll through her pictures and smile to myself. I think its getting a little freaky and crazy how much I love her, but I don't care what others think. Other than ruffs, she's the rare few I trust/love and I know she wont forsake me no matter what. The fact that one day she's gonna grow old and leave like ruffs, just scares me so much and sends shivers down my spine. Its not even a thought I ll allow to stay in my head for more than a minute. It must not and can never happen again. Please don't leave me too. Stay safe and I already asked daddy to give you more of your favourite treats.

I really really really miss you so much... I'll come back soon, okay? 

Starless

like the moon, part of you is always hidden away~ 

The one of the few things that is keeping me back in australia is that the sky here is so pretty at night. Its pretty unbelievable sometimes. I like to take late night walks with my music and walk around, in my own world and looking up to the sky once in awhile. You'll never be able to find such a pretty night sky in singapore. Makes me feel closer to my dream of lying down on a grass patch looking at the stars with a special someone, who of course hasn't been found/is missing. I really should stop being such a dreamer and focus more on my studies or something like that. 

10 October 2012

If i knew where i was going next, 

I wouldn't be taking so many naps,

or reading all these books, 

trying to divine my future 

in pillow cases

and stitched book bindings,

lost in the small decisions of each day,

only a little bit numb

I am the inevitable wanderer,

the girls who always says goodbye,

but never knows how to leave. 

(p.s. but on second thoughts, who are the ones who definitely know what they want in life at this crazy age, in our ever changing world, right?) 

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I can confidently say i've truly had the whole land down under experience, which includes dialling for an ambulance. 

I have never ever dialled 999 back in singapore and I never would have thought I would have the opportunity to do that until I came here. Surprise, surprise. Other than the fact that the emergency hotline here is 000. 

I woke up that morning and heard this crack near my neck and I just knew uh-oh, this is bad. The pain started getting worse from the neck to the shoulders and was kinda unbearable. I tried getting up and couldn't stand up not to mention walk. I was literally paralysed other than my hands and it was getting so painful till I could cry. So I tried calling the nearby clinic which did not had a doctor available for house-call. I really had no choice to call 000 which was what the clinic suggested and it took 45 minutes for the paramedics to arrive okay. 45 minutes, if its was those life and death situation, the person would probably be in heaven waiting for the paramedics instead (sorry, i really should stop complaining).

While lying in bed, I was imaging how it would be like to sit in an ambulance cause I had never been in one before and if i could have extension for my assignment deadline which was due the next day. Trust me to think of that at such a point right?? I began whatsapping my friends since I could move my hands freely... Then the paramedics came and told me that its just that my muscles had locked and I could just take some medicine and get a heat pack without going to the hospital. So in the end, I never got to sit the ambulance and of course no assignment deadline extension ... 

8 October 2012

My friendship toy with the best friend which I brought over. Hee. Mine's a werewolf, her's a vampire. I would choose vampires over werewolves anytime, but I like this werewolf. 

You are at once both the quiet and confusion of my heart.

Come and take a walk on the wild side,
Let me kiss you hard in the pouring rain,
You like your girls insane

~

Somewhere but nowhere.

So today, a crazy thought has once again popped up in my head and I have decided to share it.

When I'm old enough I shall have a lover (not those kind you have while having a bf, but i just think that it's a nicer term now for bf) and on a fine windy day we shall hop into some car( hopefully one which we know belongs to who) and take a long long drive to somewhere but nowhere in particular.

We shall drive and drive and enjoy the wind beating hard against our faces while I complain of the wind messing up my hair. We will listen to the oldies and funny songs and argue over which song to play and of course he ll give in to me. But cause I'm in such a good mood, I ll play his favourite song, which hopefully i ll know.

Then we will find a farm where there are lots of horses and dogs and animals except cats, rats and rodents. Maybe porcupines and elephants!! We can spend the whole day on the farm getting all dirty and messy but who cares.

Later at night, we'll watch a movie together with lots and lots of jellybeans. Oh and not forgetting going out and lying in sleeping bags under the stars, telling each other about our whole lives.

Okay, I'm getting too carried away. I better go back to my lecture.

WAR October Lookbook Video

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OCTOBER 2012 Video Lookbook from wearerubbish on Vimeo.

So while I was back in Singapore for the week, I managed to do a video shoot for @WEARERUBBISH! I had done one before (click on the link at the sidebar which says lookbook video) And I totally enjoyed myself every single bit. Hehehe the video is finally out!! Heheheh! So happy! :) Hope you enjoy it! 

Evil Twins

*check out my fancy fashionista-ish unicorn glasses! Mad loveeeee present from Iris who owns Twistpolka. Not forgetting the diamond headband I always wanted so badly from WeAreRubbish! *

this conversation happened last night, 

me: eh mommy, can I be a unicorn?? 

mom: orhh okay.. *continues playing diamond dash*

My mom is so happy i am currently obsessed with ponies/unicorns instead of hello kitty. She told me today "luckily you don't want hello kitty anymore, so ugly" I was like WTH. And previously she was buying me so much hello kitty stuffs. Heeh, a mother's love. 

today,

Can I have a pet elephant? *puppy eyes*

4 Oct 2012

Bought these pretty flower lollies which are way too pretty to be eaten.

So last night out of boredom, I decided to go google more about my horoscope and look what I found. 

"Geminis born on June 20 have a unique and interesting character. An attitude of emotional instability makes them attractive to others who may feel a need to "take care" of them, although June 20 people are actually much more centered than they appear. They are usually quite attractive and have a great deal of personal charm.

June 20 natives possess an idealistic view of relationships. In love, they have a resoluteness that belies their casual nature. They seem to fall in and out of love with people who are not suited to them, yet they always manage to bounce back without becoming cynical.

June 20 natives are not known for taking care of their health. Whether this lack of attention stems from laziness or a habit of self-indulgence, they need to take a hard look at their habits and make some changes.

June 20 individuals have a variety of talents, but handling money isn't at the top. Even if they are lucky enough to earn a great deal of money, they will almost certainly spend more than they earn. It is important that they pursue a career that makes them happy."


Oh and I find the below three pretty true. 

• Gemini's zodiac sign of love in the horoscope suggests that they are dreamers and they hate to wake up from their dreams. 
• Geminis can lose touch with reality as they dive into their imaginary world, the one they're with their lover in. 
• Geminis would rather love you from a distance than coming clean about their feelings and getting rejected

Desktop

Im super in love with my new desktop background! Hee. 

I've always been such a IT-idiot and doing this (of course, with some help..) is definitely considered one of the "memorable" events in my life! 

Oh, my iphone has been pony-fied too. This whole pony thing is getting a tad overboard I think...

*google "change mac dock icons" and then google whatever kind of "dock icons for mac" that you want! 

Mid-sem Break

 Last week I took a short trip back to singapore! Home sweet home! 

Travelled on scoot cause I heard how much you could save. But I am NEVER gonna take Scoot ever again! Cause that means that I would have to travel from Gold Coast all the way back since Scoot does not fly direct. The inconvenience is definitely not worth it despite saving quite a fair bit. 

This was literally right in front of me. What a scary experience. Looks like a UFO in my opinion. 

First thing I did when I got back home, other than hugging and crying all over Zara, was to open my wardrobe. Sighhhh all my clothes! This is definitely heaven compared to the amount of clothes I have over in Australia... 

I dug all these shoes out from beneath my bed. Yes, these are some of my shoes underneath my bed which have been badly neglected. You wont believe it, but i just sat down on the floor and began admiring all my different shoes and "sayang-ed" them. HAHAHHAHAHHA! 

A few days later, Mae came over to my place and helped me clear all my makeup. Sigh, used to be such a makeup junkie, as you can see. 

Before she came, there was this small drama cause I had actually called her early in the morning to wake her up cause I kept saying that time was precious and running out. She then told me to let her sleep for another two hours cause she slept at 7. So I decided to head to FEP to perm my lashes on my own then head over to her place to wake up her. Meanwhile, she had actually woke up and wanted to "surprise" me or idk what. So she cabbed over. But I wasnt at home? So she began to whatsapp and call me saying how she was outside my place and I wasnt at home. But the place I was doing my lashes had no reception and I had fallen asleep there. So when I woke up, I kinda freaked out when I saw her messages. Apparently there was some miscommunication where had already told me she was coming over but I forgot... Oops. HAHAHHAHAHAHAHHA! 

This was when I was taking my "Outfit Picture" and my dear Zara just had to be in the picture. She's beginning to be more and more like me. Hee. 

Shoot for Twistpolka!

My friend showed me this on twitter which I wasn't aware of at all. 

Finally took my Ksubis out and its still too loose cause I bought the wrong size. Uh-oh. 

Ksubis kept dropping so headed over to Denim Store and bought a pair of April77 (currently most favourite pair of jeans) :) 

Camwhoring with the best friend. No other better partner at camwhoring. The "chemistry" we have at camwhoring is pretty damn amazing.

Oh yes, and if you did notice, I coloured my hair. Not sure of the colour cause I left it to the hairdresser.

Love the pretty bottles so much I had to buy them despite not being much of an alocholic. 

Anyone wants to help me empty the contents so that I can use the bottles as a flower vase? 

Ending off this post with a picture of my face. Bye!