Elephants

^ this is the one similar to my twitter foreground but I can't seem to find the one I used :(

I can't explain how much I am in love with these creatures. Haahaha actually I can but I am just lazy to type it out. 

All Of Me: John Legend

Currently listening to.

What would I do without your smart mouth?

Drawing me in, and you kicking me out

You've got my head spinning, no kidding, I can't pin you down

What's going on in that beautiful mind

I'm on your magical mystery ride

And I'm so dizzy, don't know what hit me, but I'll be alright

My head's under water

But I'm breathing fine

You're crazy and I'm out of my mind

'Cause all of me

Loves all of you

Love your curves and all your edges

All your perfect imperfections

Give your all to me

I'll give my all to you

You're my end and my beginning

Even when I lose I'm winning

'Cause I give you all of me

And you give me all of you, oh

How many times do I have to tell you

Even when you're crying you're beautiful too

The world is beating you down, I'm around through every mood

You're my downfall, you're my muse

My worst distraction, my rhythm and blues

I can't stop singing, it's ringing, in my head for you

Romeo and Juliet

So despite this rainy weather and cooping in my room, I've been watching movies and more movies. Hahah believe it or not, I was watching Romeo and Juliet 1996, the one with Leonardo De Caprio inside. Though I missed the recent one, there was another one I think last year? I guess the 1996 one is a big favourite. 

I used to think that Romeo and Juliet was just one of Shakespeare's great hits, a stupid romance where two star-crossed lovers end up in tragedy due to miscommunication. I was thinking, how dumb, what are star-crossed lovers even? Everything seemed too dramatic and its just popular cause its by Shakespeare. And of course since it was one of the books I did for literature in secondary school, I hated it even more. 

Just now while watching the show, I remembered reading somewhere there are many great things in life. And one of the main few is to love and be loved. In the story, I guess romeo and juliet could be termed as what modern day would say as "hopeless romantics". I couldn't help but think whether its good and bad? They yearned for true love, love to them was everything. Romeo was at first all depressed and at loss, life was meaningless when he only thought of rosaline. In these days, many would have called him "Stupid", "Useless" to be so sad over "just a girl". For romeo and juliet, they had "love at first sight" and of course I hate how the word "love" is used so easily. what was love to them? yet, their love was so great they would do anything. Was this stupid? childish? or was it just brave? Is having love enough, so much so that you don't need anything else? They died in the end but found the loves of their lives, so was their deaths in vain? 

Arghhh I guess I am just thinking too much again. 

Rain, rain, go away.

According to the weather reports, it's gonna raining non stop for the next few days. And there's even gonna thunder and lightning. Yucks. 

The thunder and lightning here is just way more scary than the ones in Singapore. Well or perhaps it's just some psychological thing. Cause I know I'm not at home. And cause the winds are so strong, sometimes an umbrella isn't of much use either. And once in a awhile, you can hear the ambulance sirens which makes me shudder, knowing that something awful is happening to someone out there. 

And of course I get reminded of Zara who is such a scaredy cat and how I have to drag myself out of bed cause I know she will be waiting for me to go comfort her and hug her. Else the poor doggy will be hiding in one corner shivering. That makes me sad.

So cause it's so inconvenient to go out, I usually miss my classes on these rainydays. It's so cold and my feet. My poor feet is always icy, and that feeling is horrible. So I just snuggle in my bed, wrapping my blanket around me with my pillows surrounding me. Hoping that I ll fall asleep and when I wake up the rain is gone. 

Of course the rain makes you feel ultra lonely too. So I ll play some music to accompany me. Luckily my mom is with me this time so it's okay. And I always end up eating ice-cream in bed. Hahahhaha. Idk whats with me and ice cream these days. 

I am such a scaredy cat at times too. 

26 March 2014

The weather for the past few days has been nothing but mostly wet and gloomy with sudden downpours and showers. The perfect weather to stay indoors and snuggle in bed definitely. However, not the best if you wanna head out. Like today in school, everything was fine one moment and the next moment there's a sudden downpour and everybody starts running for shelter. However, after about a minute or so, the rain becomes a slight drizzle and everyone just walks around normally again. 

How unpredictable. 

25 March 2014

Drink bubble tea, snuggle in bed, wear big shirts, read nice books. 

"our heart is nuclear."

6:48pm 24 March

My evil lecturer who makes us listen to her monotonous voice for three hours. 

But I guess I am equally evil too. Oops. 

Bus ride.

It's 8:15pm and the next bus only comes at 8:41pm. So I'm stuck at this bus stop for the next 26min of my life watching cars go by and listening to my music. It's kinda relaxing actually. Australia has done me good. It has taught me to take buses to everywhere, anywhere. Bus all day, every day. 

I actually hate taking buses. It makes me feel lonely and I start to think too much. 

But I have this secret dream. 

One day I ll take a bus from one end to another end with a boy and it will be a happy bus ride. We don't need to talk or anything, just listen to music together and enjoy each other's company. 

Okay the bus came early. Yay. 

21 March 2014

I lubbbbbsss euzzzzzzz, mommmehhh. 

Thank you for always cooking sotong balls for me at night when I get hungry~ 

Blue skies.

Don't you think the sky in Australia is just beautiful? 

Looking at the pretty sky makes me happy. 

Eyebrow Pencil

If you've ever wondered what eyebrow pencil I've been using… 

 
I recently got these eyebrow pencils from Amy Beauty-Link International. And since the day I got them, I've been really pleased, or perhaps more than pleased with them.

I've tried countless brands of eyebrow pencil and this is definitely comparable or maybe even better than those "branded" brands out there.

It really lasts throughout the day for me and is waterproof. Its easy to draw and does not require a sharpener. Which is super good for me cause I tend to always lose my sharpeners.

The pictures above are without drawing my brows. Bare brows, we call them. ^

After I did my 3D eyebrow embroidery at Amy's, which is probably one of the best decisions I'ver ever made (no lying at all.) and with no regrets, I sometimes draw my brows when I want a stronger brow look, or when I have heavier makeup on and want more defined and darker brows.

Drawing brows. I don't think there's a specific proper way to draw brows cause each of us has different brows and its really through lots of trial and error that I finally somehow "understand" my brows more. I've had the ugliest thickest drawn brows and been made fun of countless time over the years of trial and error of drawing my brows. The thought of it gives me the shudders.

This eyebrow pencil is definitely one of the best I tried. I came across it cause I tend to have this very bad habit of looking at people's (girls in particular) makeup. Especially brows. So I was at Amy's that day and noticed that the beautician there had amazing brows so, being extremely kepo, I asked her for what brow pencil she was using and she told me that they sold it and it was the kind that makeup artists used and the kind used at beauty schools.

Once again, Amy Beauty-Link International is located at: 

Far East Plaza

#05-72/73

Tel : 67382180

It is where I did my 3D eyebrow embroidery and more. 

Read up on my previous posts. 

Amy Beauty-Link International Part 1

Amy Beauty-Link International part 2

If you quote my name you get to enjoy discounts for 3D embroidery!

Remember to call first to book an appointment first!! 

3D EYEBROW

(highly recommended by me!!!)

U.P $450

My readers pay : $398 (with a complimentary touch up)

EYEBROW EMBROIDERY

One full session : $198

Touch up : $30

Life.

Oh well, what could I say. I honestly think I am a really boring person with a not so interesting life, except certain times where there is too much drama. I mean, you can't really judge my life based on what I choose to show. Cmon, we know that everything looks good on instagram, social media. But behind those, things may be slightly different. I am not complaining about my life though. I just think that there are some amendments that need to be made to make it more fulfilling. At this moment, I just think its dull, kind of meaningless, lack of purpose. 

I am definitely not the cool kind of girl. 

I am not the kind of girl who watches soccer matches/basketball/idk-what-else-there-is with their boyfriends and cheer loudly or actually even know whats going in a game. I don't even watch television, goodness. I have no idea whats going on, what channels are showing what programs. I hardly go to the movies these days. I don't do sports. Or more like, I've never been the sporty kind. I ll probably just end up getting my legs tangled up and making a fool of myself. I've got extremely poor psychomotor skills. So I can't co-ordinate my limbs well. I don't play computer games, or playstation. Please, I have problems even figuring out the control and getting used to it. I don't play musical instruments anymore. I got a grade 1 piano, and lousy grade organ which I barely passed for all. I took up tennis lessons in primary school, puked on the first lesson and never had the courage to go back. Going out with new people, I take super long to warm up or I''ll just sit in a corner and not mingle. I don't like to socialise around. I don't like making new friends. I rather hang out the same old few people. I always believed in quality over quantity. On most occasions, I ll just whip up my phone and start scrolling through my apps to look busy. I mean thats the easiest thing to do right. 

I seem to be living in a world of my own. Full of denial and escapism. 

I mean, what are the things I do? Eat, sleep, laugh, talk, shop, use my phone, go to school. Oh come on, Tricia. Oh and I procrastinate and complain. And Instagram, post stupid same old selfies.

Is that what my life is about? Is this it??? 

If it is, thats sad. 

Owells, what can I say. Just not the kind of girl that guys fall in love with?

So hold on, while I start doing something about it.

18 March 2014

I had a pretty shitty past few days. I had countless thoughts and words in my head, spinning round and round. All kind of lost. If only I could string them all up into a prettier version.

Then someone very important to me told me this:

If you are in a dark room and feeling terrified, there are 3 things to do. 

Recognise that you are terrified and: 

1. Pretend you are not terrified and smile. 
2. Recognise that you are terrified but know that you also have to pluck up the courage and feel along the wall to find the switch to switch on the lights. 

Well, for now I may be struggling in the darkness trying to find the switch but I will do it. :)

Gotta focus on other things and pull up my socks.
Thank you momma for being so accommodating and tolerant of me.

Shitty

The higher the hopes, the greater the disappointment.

I couldn't agree more with this statement. 

I really really hate how every time I have such high hopes, high expectations and everything just comes crashing down like a tsunami onto me, in a mere couple of seconds. 

I feel so shitty.

14 March 2014

12 March 2014

Recent happenings in my life.

1. I drank expired ice lychee tea and now every drink tastes weird. 
2. My lecturers for psychology stats are on strike. Lecture and tutorial for this week has been cancelled. 
3. I've been eating lots of mos burger and sushi rolls since I came back. 
4. I was 15 minutes early for my tutorial today! A first in my three years of university life. 
5. I told myself that I would cut down on my shopping cause I am gonna have big problems bringing my things back yet today, I still bought stuffs. SELF CONTROL PLEASE. 
6. Second time drinking gong cha this week, and the Alisan tea here sucks big time. The early grey milk tea is nice though. I miss Koi. :( 
7. Haven't decided if I should head back during my april easter break. 
8. I finally found those diamond stickers to fake my nose stud though everyone thinks its extremely ugly, I am secretly in love with my fake nose stud since I can't have the real one. 

"if you remember me, then I don't care if everybody else forgets." 

You don't need to have so many people in your life, you just need that few. 

I would give up all hundreds of likes on Instagram just for that few likes. 

9 March 2014

Every day hundreds, thousands of people cross paths in your life. If you think about it, its pretty amazing how they can be at the same place at the same time as you, despite of all the different places in the world, out of all the timings. 

Yet despite so many passing by you, only that few people get your attention, only that few people matter. The rest seem to blend and dissolve slowly into the background. 

What-ifs

All the what ifs in the world. Don't you hate what ifs? You don't have a definite answer, nothing is certain. Uncertainty is awful. You never know what can happen, or what is going to happen. A million and one possibilities, both good and bad.

Just sitting here and thinking of the what ifs can kill my brain.

I hate what ifs.

what if our paths had never crossed?
what if we never talked again?
what if I had 1 more minute?
what if I had not replied?
what if?

Amy Beauty-Link International Part 2

Remember I recently blogged about my 3D eyebrow embroidery experience with Amy's? 

If you have forgotten, this is the link to the previous post. 

Anyway, before I went back to Australia, I went for my embroidery touch-up! (its been a month since I did my eyebrow embroidery btw!) My brows had faded slightly and its recommended you go for a touchup to let your embroidery last! :) I also requested a for slight arch this time! Cause I really like those slightly arched brows! 

You can actually choose if you would like your brows darker but I would suggest sticking to a colour close to your original hair colour cause you wouldn't want to look too fierce! Brows are THAT important. It can make you look younger or fiercer. 

The below pictures are taken a few days after I did the touch-up! 

^ Even more natural looking now and loving my brows moreee!! 

And if you remember, I also mentioned in the previous post, I also permed my lashes. 

My permed lashes are still going strong even after so long! Though its not as curled as before, the curl is more gradual and I love it as much! 

Especially after applying mascara, I feel that eyelash perming has really "opened" my eyes. 

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Oh and cause I really love Amy's so much, during my recent trip back, I tried a treatment for my dark circles! 

Its called gua sha. But mind you, its not the kind of gua sha you do on your body! 

During the treatment, the beautician will use a spoon-like apparatus and massage an eye-cream in. By massaging and pressing on different points in your body, blood circulation around your eye area is stimulated and there is more blood flow! The process is super relaxing and comfortable! More of getting a eye massage session! After the massage, your eyes will be treated to a soothing eye-mask! 

Immediately after the massage, the skin area around my eye felt much firmer and tighter! This treatment not only helps you with dark circles, it also helps firm the skin! It can also be done on other areas, such as your face! 

^ Check this before and after picture. (Sorry I couldn't find a more "normal" before picture of me.) I have removed all forms of coverage, e.g. foundation, concealer, underneath my eyes. This is how much my under eyes  have improved after one treatment. 

However, its always recommended to go back often for more treatments. Also, you need to regularly take care of your eyes by applying eye cream and eye masks. Else no matter how effective the treatment is, it won't last long! 

ONE LAST THING!! 

After going through an awesome experience with my previous sponsor, I am officially hooked onto IPL! 

Best thing is, Amy's offer IPL services too!! 

I find that with IPL, it is so much more convenient! I no longer need to shave/pluck my underarms and am worry-free about waving my hands at people and waving sleeveless shirts. 

I also realised that with these hair, it makes us look at least one shade darker! After removing the hair, the skin area immediately lightens! 

IPL is especially effective for thicker stubborn hair! It significantly reduces the thickness of hair and makes it much finer! Hair growth is also lessened. 

I am currently undergoing IPL for my other body areas! Trust me, you wouldn't want to shave/pluck unwanted hair your whole life right!!! 

(teehee, just for laughs.) 

As mentioned previously, 

Amy Beauty-Link International is located at: 

Far East Plaza

#05-72/73

Tel : 67382180

If you quote my name you get to enjoy discounts for 3D embroidery!

Remember to call first to book an appointment first!! 

3D EYEBROW

(highly recommended by me!!!)

U.P $450

My readers pay : $398 (with a complimentary touch up)

EYEBROW EMBROIDERY

One full session : $198

Touch up : $30

Night out.

Questionaire.

Okay, there are 150 questions in total. I give up. This kept me busy for a good 15/20 minutes. 

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1. Who was the last person you held hands with?

my mom?

2. Are you outgoing or shy?

noisy and irritating. 

3. Who are you looking forward to seeing?

nobody.

4. Are you easy to get along with?

not really. I have my bad days. 

5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you?

I don't even want to get drunk in the first place. 

6. What kind of people are you attracted to?

There's no specific type. If I am, means I am. If I am not, I'll just never be. 

7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now?

Yeah lots, friendships kind of relationships.

8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind?

9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?

Yes. I feel super uneasy watching intimate scenes in a movie with a person of the opposite sex. 

10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?

Dad? 

11. What does the most recent text that you sent say?

Its a taxi booking message. Do I need to type that out???

12. What are your 5 favourite songs right now?

13. Do you like it when people play with your hair?

Yeah, loved it as a child. But kinda hard now with such short hair. 

14. Do you believe in luck and miracles?

Miracles yes. Luck, no.

15. What good thing happened this summer?

Summer? When's summer in Singapore? 

16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?

I kissed my dog. 

17. Do you think there is life on other planets?

That will be cool. 

18. Do you still talk to your first crush?

Nope. 

19. Do you like bubble baths?

Yes. It was my favourite as a kid.

20. Do you like your neighbours?

I like the one of the right, hate the one on the left.

21. What are you bad habits?

HAHAHA. Too many to name. 

22. Where would you like to travel?

Anywhere with a person I like. 

23. Do you have trust issues?

Yeah.

24. Favourite part of your daily routine?

Eating, sleeping. 

25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with?

26. What do you do when you wake up?

Check my phone. 

27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker?

Lighter? Or maybe tanned.

28. Who are you most comfortable around?

Family la. 

29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up?

no. hahahahahahaha. 

30. Do you ever want to get married?

It will be a lie if I say no. 

31. Is your hair long enough for a pony tail?

Yeah but with lots of strands dropping out.

32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with?

None. 

33. Spell your name with your chin.

And look like a fool with triple chins. 

34. Do you play sports? What sports?

35. Would you rather live without TV or music?

Without tv. Im doing fine now without tv. I ll die without music. 

36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them?

I never told someone I liked them first unless they told me first after I getting rejected once. 

37. What do you say during awkward silences?

Usually nothing. Just use the phone? Or escape. 

38. Describe your dream girl/guy?

I can't.

39. What are your favourite stores to shop in?

Forever21, Zara, Topshop.

40. What do you want to do after high school?

I already completed high school three million years ago. 

41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?

Yeah? Depends.

42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean?

I either can't be bothered or am damn bloody shy/nervous. 

43. Do you smile at strangers?

Female strangers yes. Male, no. 

44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean?

Bottom of the ocean to find mermaids. 

45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning?

To go toilet or cause I am hungry 

46. What are you paranoid about?

Things I care about. 

47. Have you ever been high?

Yes.

02 March 2014

Today's was my dad's birthday and we headed out for a buffet dinner. Which I was really really happy about since there was an endless supply of lobsters and crab pincers. Btw, I don't really eat the other parts of the crab other than the pincers. Its not really about not like the other parts, but more of, not knowing how to. 

So I was just lazing at home the whole day and I suddenly thought of playing the piano. Yeah, I do know how to play the piano. Grade 1. Hahahahaha. But I learnt the organ too laa. So I sat down, and tried playing this song I heard (of course, I googled the piano score sheets). I kinda succeeded? Then I tried playing Happy Birthday next. Hahahahha. Somehow, my dad came home at that time and he heard it which made him happy. And I am glad about it. Cause he took his newspaper and sat down at the arm chair to listen to my horrible out of tune playing. It reminded me of how he used to do that when I was a small girl. :)

Hello there?

Ahhh, too cute. Why am I always a sucker for such cute animal gifs. They make me happy and I smile when I look at them. Seems like they are waving to me, so eager and happy to see me. Heeheee. I guess it's just a bearish form of dogs wagging their tails and coming up to greet you when they see you reach home. 

Home

The second most debilitating feeling

I have combated thus far is homesickness.

Home is the constellations hidden within your bones.

Home is the radiance in my reflection

when your eyes meet mine.

Home is the taste of my name

when you sigh it into my mouth.

Home is the kisses you plant

on all the places I hate most about myself.

Home is your arms wrapped

around me like a warm blanket

fresh out of the dryer.

Home is the tear 

that glistens in your eye

when our lack of time

becomes a harsh reality.

I don’t know quantum physics,

or where we go when we die.

But I do know that home is not a place,

it’s the feeling immersed in your bones

when you realize you’re right

where you’re destined to be.

-Katie Vreeland