01 May 2014

"But the sky is really beautiful right now and I know that I am often sad but there are moments when I fall in love with the world and I adore all the oxygen inside my lungs and I am not scared anymore." 

SHOP6BY6

Behind the scenes for @Shop6by6 for the upcoming launch of their online store! 

29 April 2014

Sometimes I wondering if heading back to singapore during the short break is right, or should I be like most others and go for a short road trip around australia. The best part and main part, of course, was definitely reuniting with the dogs. Hell, I miss them so much. At times when I am undecided about heading back, I just think of those darlings and my decision is made.  

The trip back this time was bitter sweet. I had days where I was happy as a lark, then days where I start crying cause suddenly everything seems so overwhelming. Things are somehow more complicated in singapore. Don't ask me why. Here in oz, I worry less, think less and dress up less. Hahahhaha. Thats why sometimes I know that being in australia has defo done me some good, away from everything back in singapore, as much as I hate to admit it. The drama and all. I feel more relaxed and at ease here in OZ. Of course the only downside here is that my family and dogs aren't here. 

The flight back was horrible terrible though. Due to severe thunderstorms and lightning, the airport was closed and we had to make a detour to Cairns. So I ended up in Cairns and was stranded there for FIVE hours. Well the only positive thing is that, now I can say I've been to Cairns. 

Now I am down with a bad throat and cold. Sucks to be me and I'm all alone here. :( 

Happy 29th April 2014! Only comes once in a lifetime. 

"To me you're the sea and I have fallen in love with salt on my skin." - Tyler Knott Gregson

Wonderstellar

Some pictures from my shoot with Wonderstellar when I was back! Time really passes quickly. Its been three years since I started modelling for WS!  

20th April 2014

18th April 2014

Guy: nice jacket there. 

Me: uh thanks 

Guy: I haven't seen it before. It's really nice.

*look at my jacket* 

Me: uh that's cause you are guy and don't shop at female places.

*walks away* 

Wtf is wrong with me. Sometimes I'm too unfriendly for my own good thus shutting everyone out. 

Pfffttttt. 

15th April 2014

And love sometimes feels like a game you have to win. 

Happiness Level VS Time Spa

Sometimes I actually have felt bad about being happy. For me, I have this "theory. Yes, another one of those weird "theories" of mine. 

I am actually more worried, or equally worried when I am happy as compared to when I am upset. How dumb is that you may think?? I actually have this thinking that there is sort of a balance of everything. If I am happy for one week, does that mean that I'll have to experience another week of being upset? The amount of time I am happy and the amount of happiness are somehow correlated to the amount of sadness in the future and its time span. 

And when I get happy, I start to worry about when this happiness is gonna get taken away from me. Snatched away. Then I'll be back to square one. But as the saying, carpe diem. I shall just enjoy the moment when I am happy I guess? 

And if I continue to think like that, even if its not true, will it actually happen. Ahhh, the power of the mind. 

I am such a thinker. Sometimes, I actually hate thinking so much. It kind of kills my brain. Scorches it and fries it up.

Till the next time~

14 April 2014

1:44am

While everyone is already in their dreamland, here I am in the library mugging for my mid-semester. Yes, I am actually putting in more effort this time round this semester. Its my last year and I really want to do well and not look back, wishing I had put in more efforts and not wasted it on some stupid stuffs. Other than thinking of nonsense, of course. 

Quote of the week for me. *drum rolls, clap hands*  

These days I find myself dreaming a lot. Weird thing is, I actually wake up remembering these dreams. And it feels so real and kinda hits me. You know how people always say what you think about in the day can affect what you dream about at night? Well, it sort of applies to me now. And its scary! Cause sometimes, I actually start confusing these dreams for reality. I seem to have trouble differentiating whether the dream really took place in real life. Like did it happen? or was it a dream? Considering that I have very bad memory. Sometimes I even have problems remember what I did the day before etc. That makes matters worse. 

And and, I realised, well yes it did take me awhile, but I am such a day dreamer???!!? I can literally start day-dreaming anytime, anywhere. Especially when I am alone, like on the bus or what. And I can even start giggling or laughing sometimes. Or also, become very very sad. Affecting my mood. You know, as if you suddenly recall something very funny. Oh and that happens to me too. 

Sometimes I think I am going crazy. 

Need to snap out of it.

"The invention of the ship was also the invention of the shipwreck." - Paul Virilio 

#vain #selfie

Selfie shot before leaving the house yesterday for a nights out in ozland. Of course this was taken way before I got locked out of my apartment and was still in high spirits. 

Go away, April.

April. A month of jokes and fools. 

This month so far has been nothing but boring. I've been trying to put more efforts into my work, staying in school till late cause I don't really enjoy going back to that room of mine and facing those four walls and being, well, alone.

I've been eating out everyday. Thank God for awesome friends who would occasionally invite me over when they cook, or even come over to cook and eat with me. Other than that, my meals are mostly eaten outside, filled with mostly MSG and MSG. Mehhh~ I miss Yati's cooking at home. 

I had a crazy gastric attack that day in the library and my friend rushed all the way to the supermarket which opened late to buy medicine and water for me while I was crumbling in pain in the library. Hate how my gastric works up at such bad times. And no, I have been eating regularly okay. 

Oh and my awesome friends also came up with a formula for me to calculate the time I would take to reach. apparently, I don't really have a good sense of timing. Oops. I even have a coefficient. 

Tr = n + 10 + TI + d/St

What can I say? They make my uni life happy and fun. Without them, uni won't be the same. 

10 April 2014

oh those eyes of yours look so sad and i wonder what goes on in that mind of yours, so dark.

02 April 2014

This. 

March flew by in a blink of an eye though looking back, I won't say I enjoyed it a lot. April, I won't ask you to be good to me cause the lesser the hopes, the lesser the disappointment? Just don't be too mean. 

I've got one mid-semester paper coming up and the thought of it scares me. I am actually already in my last year of university? Yuckssssss. The thought of what the future holds is kinda scary. 

In the meantime, I am missing this ball of sunshine so much. :( 

01 April 2014

Bumped into this cute doggy (poodle I suppose?) outside the supermarket yesterday after lunch. The poor doggy was waiting outside for its owner and it looked so upset/lonely. Then me being me, of course approached the doggy. 

Well usually I would have been stopped by others for fear of it being aggressive or dirty etc. But heck. The dog was wagging its tail furiously. I mean, I believe that if I don't harm the dog, why would it "harm" me by biting me or what. But it kinda makes sense right? Why would the dog wanna "harm" you for no reason if you have no ill intentions. 

And true enough, this dog was a total sweetheart. It began coming super close to me, cuddling up to my legs. As if rubbing itself against my legs to show that it likes me. Or at least I want to think that way to make myself happy. Hahahhaha. *no I am not in denial, hahahahah* And hahahah, I got some pictures with the dog. I mean cmon, its too cute!!! The owner didn't come out and I had to leave. I was kinda sad to leave but i mean, I don't have a choice. 

Someone once told me that if I was gonna be so sad knowing that I had to leave the dog, then in the first place don't even touch it, get attached to it. Haa, but I just jump head/heart in first as usual. Does the same thing apply to human relationships? 

But of course I got emo afterwards cause it reminded me of my dogs at home. And I started to look at my dog's photos and videos. Mehhhh, I just hate the thought of me being so far away and not being able to "protect" them when they are afraid, especially when its raining and there's lightning/thunder. Yikes, I don't even want to think about it. 

I think I posted this gif before but its really too cute. Looking at such stuff makes me happy.