As cliche as it may sound, but in the twinkling of an eye, I've already been here in OZland for almost close to 1.5 years. Looking back, it was definitely not as fast as I said it. I remember long sleepless nights here, watching the clock tick by and wondering how I was gonna survive for another one week before getting back home for the holidays. Or perhaps days where I cried non stop while walking home in the cold and dark cause I just felt so lost.
Well I've definitely moved on from that crying terribly homesick stage 4 phase and I am glad I did. It would be a lie to say that I dont miss home at all now but its much better. I am adapting better and am glad for my momma who always flies over to accompany me (BTW, she's here this time cause she didn't want me to take a taxi back alone from the airport cause she thought it was dangerous so she secretly went to book tickets to fly back with me.)
Many people asked me why didn't I go to a more bustling city or the UK? Definitely less boring and more lively. Well, of all the many universities, I have no idea why I ended up with this one too. (Perhaps a small percentage of it is cause of my stupid GPA and the guy at IDP who was my academic counsellor there.) I had heard of how terribly boring this place was, no shopping etc (UK has Primark, Topshop), yet I still stuck to it. Of course, I definitely have some regrets coming here. There's no gongcha here??!
I secretly felt that (well, its not much of a secret anymore) there was a reason this university was mentioned and how it caught my attention, etc. Like there was this thing pulling me towards it? Like I always said like how things always happen for a reason? I chose to believe that my dear daddy God up there had an awesome plan for me in this university or maybe not a plan, but reasons for sending me to this ghost town which I absolutely kinda hate.
Though I am still not sure of this reason or great plan he has for me despite 1.5 years into my course, I still have lots of time to discover it and am definitely on my way there, closer and closer with every step. Or actually, I've already learnt a few lessons here...
Well if you can't already guess, I have this love-hate relationship with this place. I claim to hate how boring it is yet whenever I get back to bustling singapore, I start to miss my carefree easy boring life here. If you look at it logically though, there isn't much to hate here. But yes, I still dislike it sometimes.
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