Day 01

I came across this "30 Days of Blogging" recently where ideas/questions are given for blogposts and decided that it would be of good use to this dead blog of mine.

So the topic for Day 01 was: Your current relationship. If single, discuss how single life is. 

(*This totally sounds like an essay topic given during assignments and I am wondering why I am actually doing this instead of my criminology assignment which is due next friday.)

Relationship status: Single and ready to mingle.

There are days where I go through the "I-am-so-lonely" "Why-does-everyone-have-a-bf-except-me" phases where I start looking at all my attached friends and get all envious about it. Which is also the time where I come to this little space here of mine to rant. 

However, there are also days where I am like "No boys, no cry. No family, I will die"mood where I feel like a 101% modern day girl or Superwoman.

Well I gotta admit that alot of my people at my age or younger, are already attached and sometimes, I get a little worried. Maybe I ll be that 30 year spinster with a evil cat? But I somehow will convince myself that everyone is different and that the right one just hasn't appeared in my life. 

In the meantime, I am not gonna settle for any random Tom, Dick, Harry who I am not crazily in love with. Plus, my mindset is probably not matured enough (if you know me personally, you'll know why.)

I have been single for quite awhile now. Or maybe, a very long time. Throw me a boyfriend now, I ll probably not be able to adjust well since I am way too used to the "carefree" single life. I don't need to answer to anyone, report every hour (which is crazy?!?), and constantly be on my phone to keep in touch. (Btw, I've developed a very bad habbit of not replying people these days.) I had never been much of the sticky needy girlfriend with all the honey words (Calling each other "baby" in front of others, I can NEVER do that. I can't even get that word out of my mouth.)

Well, but I definitely am very envious of those who are happily attached, always having someone they can count on, go on dates with, etc. But I've met far too many scoundrels/idiots/douchebags (Sorry, dont mind the coarse language) and seen how horrible guys can be. Blame it on past experiences. 

I've learnt to be extremely careful with my feelings and not jump into any relationships. I find it much harder these days to even start talking to someone new or open up till I feel comfortable. Or best of all, I have already "friend-zoned" the person right from the beginning, which according to my friends is what I am best at doing. Hahhahaha oops. 

If you ask me how I feel about single life? Well, I dont know much about the non-single life so I can't comment much. But for now, I am just gonna work on myself first to be a better person and, uhm, my studies??? And of course, my family which is the most important to me and the best thing that ever happened to me. 

(Taken from: Tumblr / Australian War Memorial, Sydney 1940.) 

"And in the end, we were all just humans... drunk on the idea that love, only love, could heal our brokenness." - F. Scott Fitzgerald.