The early years.

I was wondering whats with the sudden #whatpubertydidtome hashtags on instagram and decided that I would just post some of my younger photos I've with me since I'm in OZ and don't have the whole collection. 

I was always the smiley kid since young and everyone, especially my aunties always had nicknames for me such as "kai xin guo" (pistachio nuts?) or "sweetie pie" (HAHAHHAHAHA, okay only my favourite auntie was allowed to call me that.) And yes, I had a favourite auntie. 

Whether you believe it or not (though the pictures below kinda doesn't really show it) but I remember very clearly that there was a period of time where I actually didn't know how to smile. Yes, I didn't know how to smile. So I always had problems taking pictures cause smiling nicely/naturally was always a big issue for me. And I would always ask my mom "mommy, how to smile??? can you teach me how to?" and I'll always remember my mom's reply "just think of something happy or funny!" I guess I got over that phase after a short while? Hehehe. 

Oh, I absolutely LOVED my bubble baths. There were always the highlights and something I looked forward to. :) 

I guess the picture below was taken during the phase I didn't know how to smile? 

Posing queen much?

I wish I had more to share but probably the next time round!

6 May 2013

Just my favourite quote of all times: 

"All the world's a stage, and all the men and women merely players: they have their exits and their entrances; and one man in his time plays many parts, his acts being seven ages."
- William shakespeare

Sometimes it really irritates me how easily influenced I am by others, both actions and words. Though on the surface I may act like it doesn't matter or bother me much, deep down I always get affected pretty badly. I always end up lying in bed, feeling super sad silently, somehow "suffering" in silence, perhaps to what someone had said so casually. And I know that the person will never know or find out how badly it had affected me. 

Despite being pretty much nonchalant and happy-go-lucky (or on the surface only), I've always had this side of me. Minor things, small gestures mean a lot and words often not thought carefully before being spoken tend to hurt. Being a typical girl, I usually tend to read too much into things Usually, more of actions and words. I wish I could apply this very detailed side of me to schoolwork but sadly, the world is not a wish-granting factory (Quoted, the fault in our stars, john green). It also occurred to me how people's words can have such a big influence on others, be it said casually or seriously. In fact, most of the time, we probably have no idea how our words had affected someone, most likely in a negative light. Its almost like how someone can casually say to a person "You're so fat!" probably jokingly and that girl ends up with an eating disorder three months down the road. 

"You have to decide who you are and force the world to deal with you, not with its idea of you."

P.s. you know how I always say "Stay true to yourself" blah blah, well I gotta admit, its actually kind of bullshit. It is definitely a lot easier said than done living in this society. But owells, achievable! 

sweet dreams. night. x

6 May 2013: H is for Horrible Humans.

Instead of another of those emotional ranting posts, I've decided on something much more meaningful. 

Might as well since I am currently in OZ. 

Quoted from people on tumblr. 

“It is common for koalas to roam back to their home range afterwards and become confused to find nothing there. A worker noticed a koala had been sitting stationary in broad daylight on top of wood piles for over an hour.”

"We have to stop cutting away there homes, what if your neighbor came and demolished your house and you were sitting there on your lawn like this. :("

"That’s the story for most of the species in the world today. Don’t just look. Do something. Everybody’s got the power to make change and even the tiniest efforts produce results. Start a Change.org petition, refuse to buy from companies that destroy habitat, help educate other people so that they understand the issue and know their options and choices, boycott brands and businesses, petition governments, fight for causes, consume less, be an advocate. Apathy is the sole cause when change doesn’t happen because everything wrong in the world is 100% preventable and fixable initially. Most people will step up to help or do something if someone is showing them where and how. It takes someone to do something about it. Make the noise. <3"

See, this is probably one of the many reasons why I am utterly ashamed to be a human. God gave us this beautiful world, and what are we doing to it? I honestly hope that like in movies that are created ironically by humans themselves, these animals will one day take over the world or something (like aliens? you get the idea?) and we can finally get a taste of our own medicine. I actually would be quite happy if that happened, honestly. 

NOW GO LIE IN BED AND THINK/REFLECT/PONDER. 

HMMMPFHHH. 

5 May 2013

I spent hours and days contemplating yet, no combination of twenty-six different letters could ever accurately capture even a sliver of what this feeling is. 

ShopSelcouth

If you didnt already know, my bestfriend MAE opened her first shop at SCAPE Undeground, Unit B15! 

The above clothes are all from her shop! DO SHOW YOUR SUPPORT! 

www.shopselcouth.com

Instagram: @ShopSelcouth

2 May 2013

Secretly sneaked back home for awhile last week!

I honestly think that the most beautiful sunsets can be seen from planes. But I guess company is overall the most important cause with the best company, even the most "normal" sunset would be beautiful?

happy like crazy and of course, the happiest to see my sunshine! :) 

I missed her sooo much it was terrible! But glad I could see her again! 

She needs braces yeah? 

Hahahhahaha. 

Unglam-est dog award goes to her. She sleeps in this position while grunting. HAHAHAHA! 

Friday night to Zzzouk! 

Honestly, after going to the clubs here once/twice, it sounds unbelievable, but I feel much "safer" at zouk. 

FOOD FOOD FOOD, I CANT RESIST.

This Mount Fuji thing at Shokudo at Cineleisure is pretty awesome. Worth a try!

Met up with the rest hahahhahaha. These two are the sweetest. Accompanied me the whole day for shopping and helped me carry my stuffs. Other than that, had to tolerate my non-stop talking and nonsense. Hahahha wonder how they got so much patience? 

CAN YOU SEE THESE TWO GUYS AT THE TOP LEVEL MAKNG THE HEART SHAPE WITH THEIR HANDS? OMG. SO SWEET? WAHLAO.

Also went to satisfy my our craving for shiok maki (generation2) though its pretty sad that the servings is getting smaller and smaller? :( I think the 3 of us ate around $160 worth of food at Koh Sushi bar that day. Horrible terrible me could't stop ordering as usual and luckily the two guys helped me to finish!

Went to see Mae at her shop @Selcouth at Scape Underground! 

(Two outfits below are both from there!)

GO SUPPORT!! :) 

Eating the Jeliquor strawberry and mango pudding cheesecake from d'Good Cafe

273 Holland Avenue! Recommended! :) 

This kind of summed up my short trip back home! 

Will be back with more pictures! :)